How to save a life
Shit, being upset makes me look ugly on the outside. I look so haggard all day and my eyes just don’t look normal! And looking at myself makes me even more upset! I think I need to do something to save my stupid face, like sleeping really really early. I’m thinking of getting a new piercing soon, with Chloe! Super excited about it, but I shall not reveal anything until it’s done 🙂 Awww, we’re not going to Spooktacular after all because the early bird offer flew away 😦 (pun intended) I initially thought of dressing up as a pumpkin!
Like:
Or maybe as a stuffed olive like:
Nah, just kidding.
I’m currently in desperate need of cash, but I can’t work during the holidays because of my results 😦 I hope I can participate in lots of flea markets so that money can come rolling in. Next I’ll need to better manage my money!! And I’m highly anticipating Christmas, because it’s the season to be jolly! Everyone who knows me well knows how much I loveeeeee Christmas! Haha, just talking about it makes me wanna groove.
Off to dinner, adious!
You’re a murderer.
Throughout today, I was just on the verge of bursting out into tears. Today as my mother went to see Miss Tay, a lot of things were running in my mind.
I’m really angry with myself for allowing myself to fall sick during the crucial promos period because of a particular selfish person. I’m angry at myself for believing that it would last. I’m angry with myself for accepting. I’m even more angry with myself for inflicting guilt upon myself. There are somethings I’ve done that I really cannot forgive myself for. I really hate myself for being blinded by ‘trust’. And it sucks even more because I cannot tell anyone at all or I would just die of disgust, embarrassment and guilt. And saying that all of it was an insult is merely an understatement.
I really don’t know when I will stop being this sickening sullen creature. I guess I’m officially tired of life and everything it has been throwing at me of late. I wish I could just leave everything behind and go to somewhere far and never look back. Sometimes, just sometimes, death seems to be the easier way out. I really hope all these pass soon.
P.S: Don’t judge me, I’m just saying how I truly feel. People always tell me “seriously, why are you still thinking about this” I would give anything to stop feeling so down. The thing is, I can’t. So stop judging me.
She will be loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore
It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
The way it unfolds is yet to be told
Oh, I woke up at 11 today and didn’t go to school today 🙂 As far as I remember, It’s the first time in my entire life that I woke up so late. It’s because I spent my entire night watching movies in my phone and only slept at 5 hahaha 
Anyways, I’ve been doing research and came up with a list of places to visit/eat! Yay, I shall start sending invites to ppl to join me in my adventures. My schedule is very tight okay, so if you wanna book me better hurry 🙂 And I also made up my mind to start a collection of toy cameras. My Holga has been sitting in my room collecting dust. So, time to take it out for some shots 🙂 I’m anticipating the many plans waiting for me~ Especially the Hokkaido trip! AND I finally found the perfect boots for me to wear to Japan. WTH, must get it soon.
On a random note, I think I shall ditch this stupid emotional blog for a livejournal soon 🙂 & it shall be a photographic documentation of my life. Alrighty, bye pumpkins 🙂
Don’t tell me you’re sorry cause you’re not.
Why can’t you co-operate when I’m trying to make lives easier. Why do I have to find out a little more something bad about you everyday. Your lies, your character, your attitude. If anyone has anything to hide from me, please ensure that it is safely hidden. I’m sick of accidentally finding out about the lies you weaved so well. And also, the face to face apology/explanation is needed even after everything I said. Till then, we’re quits.
P.s: I think I’ve met the most horrible person in my life.
I am trying hard, you are not.
WALAO. What exactly was I in your eyes? IDIOT, always spoil my mood -.-
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YOU ARE SUCH A LIAR, YOU NEVER EVER KEEP YOUR PROMISES, NEVER ONCE. NOW THAT I FOUND OUT I REALLY WANNA SLAP YOU A ZILLION TIMES. IT’S LIKE YOU WERE TREATING ME LIKE I’M STUPID. KNN LA COWARD, YOU’RE JUST BUT AN IGNORANT LITTLE BOY.
no fun at all
Hotdogbuns! 
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